Tonight I sat down for a while and took a little assessment of myself asking the question “How am I doing” — nothing particular in mind just a general question that can cover a lot of areas….here’s what I think:
1. I’m excited to get involved possibly as a leader in Weight Watchers. I have always had an interest in health and nutrition….this gives me an outlet for that and also helps to keep me on the healthy program
2. I’m loving playing in the worship band at Milestones. It is unbelievably refreshing and peaceful to go – play the keyboard – and leave – leaving all the problems there. Coming home from practice without frustration and more to do than I can possibly get done between Thursday night and Sunday morning is such a wonderful feeling
3. I struggled greatly trying to find my “place” in church when we first came here. After 23 years as “the pastor’s wife” – it was strange not to know who I was. As a matter of fact we recently went to a marriage retreat and they asked the pastors and wives of the churches to stand — I think it was our first time not standing when those words were said. It was a surrill feeling. I kinda sat there not knowing how I felt about it all….. I think I’m still struggling a little there. However, it is so nice to go to church and not have the pressure of being “the pastors wife”
4. I’m enjoying being home more these days. With weight watchers I can pretty much pick my hours. I’m spending more time at home than I have in years. It’s good. We’re eating more meals at home these days and I’ve been able to get into more of an exercise program
5. Oh, I still love my mochas….I still love shopping (more window shopping these days)…..and moving furniture around (which makes Doc upset)
6. Dealing with nearing the age where my mom died has been a little harder than I thought it would. I’m 54 my mom died at 57 with a major heart attack. I’m trying to take much better care of myself …..however, I’m finding that that rolls around my mind alot
7 . Speaking of 54 – I don’t feel 54 – I hope I don’t look 54 – I don’t think I do, but who knows…..growing older haunts me… I don’t want to grow old ( or what old is in my mind)
So, how am I doing? I think I’m good, I think I’m real good. Life is good. Hope is good. This might be the “goodest” time of my life in a LONG time
